One love

Today it was sunny, sunny after a long long time and warm after an even longer time...I started to wake up and I felt like I've been sleeping for a 100 years...Guess that Sleeping Beauty isn't such a myth after all and btw did I mention that I hate winter and I usually hibernate in that part of year? Oh yeah and I have a broken heart and sometimes (actually usually) I can't trust people...And yeah I am crazy, damn shit crazy and damn shit messed up and right now I don't make any sense, but I actually don't give a damn...cause it makes sense to me and I am fucking tired to do what makes sense for the other people, and it's a big crap to watch over every step you and the others take! Today I made a list of all the things I haven't done in a while and I am fucking missing a lot. I guess I am not ready to grow up yet, being an adult it's pretty boring and pretty annoying. So, I miss:

-wild dances

-being crazy

-acting irresponsible

-being naive

-gymnastics

-being an actress(except real life)

-thinking that my heart would never break

-making mistakes

-laughing till I can't breathe

-swearing

-being wild

-being innocent

-travel around the world

-make new friends

-the emotions of a first date

-a session abroad where nobody knows me and I can be whoever I want just for fun

-dancing till my legs are hurting like shit, but I am happy

-a guy who can lead me while dancing

-meaningful and meaningless conversations

-playing piano

-singing even though I have no voice

-making surprises for people even if some don't appreciate them

-writing great poems

-being bad and impish

-running wild

-walking through the woods

-watching a chick flick

-eating tones of ice-cream

-painting with no talent

-screaming

-crying

-making fun

-dreaming

-fighting

-running away to London

-wandering through Paris streets alone

-watching stars

-get lost in a big city

-swimming at night naked

-getting drunk

-hoping

-surrendering my soul

-fall in love

-being gorgeous and spending 4 hours to rig up

-getting out in pyjamas

-running after a dog

-being challenged

-not thinking what I am saying

-being a drama queen

-trying out new things

-fooling around

-repeating things like now

-not making sense

+one more thousand and having a guy who would manage to keep up :P

P.S You can say that in a word I damn shit miss being alive;)